Hi!

i assume it is safe to say that frm the lack of blog tags...or rather the fact that i do all the taggin...no one reads my ranting.which is ok coz ud probably feel the same way u did b4 and after readin if u ever read it...nothing changes..nothing changes u..or mi. or anyone or anything. ah well.

do u know wat makes one a pro at games... or pro at anything for that matter? its split clearly into skill, passion, and gift... passion is a small percentage while skill and gift are bigger and equal i assume... and it is sad to say ppl will generalize u wat u cant do instead of wat u can do in life.. i m no different...lookit mi..i can speak well in my second or even my first language...my academic process is lower than a snakes belly... and whenever there is competition, i just lose it. i dont know wat to do now.. wat makes one so good at something? why cant i just seem to answer that question. why is it i see ppl so pro at wat they do and all i see is people doin sumthing for the first time and still amaze mi.

the passion...the drive... i dont have that... alot of people think its impossible but its true.. i can look at everythin and tell myself wow.. but other than tt it makes no impression on mi... all my games.. i sucked... i was the bottom rung. maybe its because i have a short attention span... i just cant concentrate on something so i just jump to something else... like KO and WOW.. or the fact ppl improve faster than mi and i cant keep up? and so if i just cant do this...shud i give up? and wat should i do aft this...

it was like this comic from the 8-bit theatre... when red mage had amnesia and lost all his booksmarts... and black mage said sumthing interestin..
black mage: its ok man..it was a stupid skill anyway... so what?
to which the red mage replied...
red mage: but its all i got...

exactly...ive been doin loser gamin for all my life now...and now that ive nv improved...wat on earth is wrong with mi? am i doomed forever to make sure no one stoops to mi lv by lettin them get better than mi? destined to be a loser in life for the rest of it.? no job no cash..livin in a house with my bro and just takin care of him...cold...alone... i cant do anything..

today a girl who i tot was cute msg mi out of no reason...and she asked mi for a song... and she went offline in the middle...and all she did was say hi...nor apologize on msn... or anything.. o well..i shall expect that alot in my real life.. alot of gals askin questions and not wantin the answers... or just comin to mi for stuff they want and runnin to their bfs for stuff they need... Always a fren, never a boyfren... sigh..

KTHXBYE!

[describe urself in one word : lonely
explaint what u want in life : acceptance
tell us wat u want rite now : answers]