HI~

[Heh for my 3 advisors. thanks for ur advices.. all 3 of u.]

im a good mood! i think its coz i watched hanibal lecter. heh i saw him eat the face of tt nurse even with his hands tied. tt was funky man. Hanibal 'The Cannibal' Lecter. hey ud think with a name like Hanibal hed be anything else? know wut im saying? XD

so its a sunday and ive got good news!! i feel good now. coz... U know Qiaoli? the girl i refused to give up on? well

i gave up!

yea! so for now.. remember.. no more ql wisecracks zzz. its time for mi to embrace my destiny as the lone guy [arooo] ure probably wondering what made mi finally decide to let go of stuff. well its because i kinda got some intervention from my 3 advisors frm chem eng..

all started with 1st one tellin telling mi abt unconditonal love and learning when to let go. to learn to live with it and try to settle for wats best for her and wats best for u. and not wats best for both of u, even tho its only good for u. but i wasnt convinced so i the 2nd one for advice aft my lecture abt wat is unconditional love and when would u know to let go. basically she just told mi that its when u realize that u cant do anyhting abt it. and technically..the bigger picture where ure not sitting together would be good anyway. then i asked the 3rd one.. she took a few days to reply...but she did tell mi that even aft all my trying its gone...so why really bother [trust mi she put it in way better words...] and thats when i realize... i trust these 3 ppl with almost everything i have and if they come and give mi the same advice...they're obviously rite arent they? unless its a big conspiracy..but how many conspiracies can there be against one guy? ive got the main one since 13 so...yea tts enuff.. so yea

special thanks to my 3 beautiful advisors for all ur help, advice, and lecturing haha. if i need anything... or got anything on my mind. trust mi, u'll be the first 3 to know...[after mi of coz.. i'll be the first...].. btw...i owe the 2nd a cookie walk. zzz.

so other than that life is pretty cool this week. saw the ffod sci girl 3 4 times....sadly stupid rock and melon and xy go shout her name and scare her off zzz.. lucky i wasnt there.. btw..... i think im gonna try xiews beta formula on the next oppurtunity. hope it works comrade. haha saw her lots during friday..she was walking back and forth for sum friggin reason.. funky. ah well

need a good blog song... but i cant dl so im asking u guys... if u happen to have thse songs

• You Give Love a Bad Name - Jon Bon Jovi
• Pretty Vegas - INXS
• Youre The Voice - forgot whu
• Black Velvet - forgot.
• Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
• Holiday - Green Day

pls notify me and send it to mi on msn or something pls? arranged in order of preference.. i the bon jovi song rocks. hehehe

other than that mi life is pretty empty...aside frm the fact i had a conversation i had yesterday..with my 3rd advisor ^^

she said that i shud just wake up frm stuff, drop my thinking and just concentrate on my studies.. and then she said sumthing that struck mi... she said that she didnt want wanna see ppl keep on sayin u r such a weirdo.

yea she means well.. lucky i got her to help mi on stuff. i guess during my 3 years of my poly life ive done stupid stuff. and Stupid stuff. sigh. nothing compared to secondary sch tho. i remember yi xiong tellin mi im infamous in poly...and that was after sem 2.. and i remember the exact words that i thought the instant he ended his sentence...

it was... 'FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF..................UCK!

i mean i dont remember doin anything specifically so it must be something i said. and my brain and mouth work independantly of each other which was really sad. ah well.. and then it got mi thinking. im glad i got someone like her to feel concerned abt whats going on with mi. the amazing thing abt her is that she can read mi. see number 1 and 2...they give good advice aft i explain stuff to them. which is good.

1 reads mi face whenever i hear something bad...esp during that bus ride aft our apel.. thanks to number 1 ^^. and number 1 knows mi longer than the other 2. and so she knows wat to say.

and number 2 always helps mi with stuff and gives random tips to things i always seem to forget. shes good tt way. shes always like 'yo u did this' im like ' do wat?? 'then shed explain stuff and i be like ooo then yea lol.

but number 3...shes the scary one. she can read mi mind. that day durin our poster exhibition, she just told mi we needed to talk and so we did. and she just managed to pry everything out. and not only that.. she told mi things i told myself and not anyone else...not even my com. shes sppoky.. but i know she cares so she always helps mi and raises concern.. shes a good person i give her credit for that.

ah watever im sure i'll think of something. im Blitz! i always think of something to solve mah probs. and today is no different. i'll solve this and then, i'll have cookies.

did u ever notice that batman. has got to be the best hero ever? he is a friggin superhero...but...he has no superpowers...his abilites are just human, but to the next lv. batman is proof that even the norm has the abilit to do stuff. all hail batman!!!!!! when i grow up. i wanna be batman..or maybe the joker.. haha nad with that thought, i shall end..coz i dunnoe wat to write.

kthxbye

[it doenst matter now does it. even if i stop doin stuff, ppl will consider mi a wierdo.. i just have to live with the taint of eccentricity, the wierdness, the difference that is Blitz and hope that someday, id outlive them all and dance on their graves .] GRAVE DANCING~~~ lessons at $2 an hour.