hi! for WoW lovers, fans of leeroy jenkins, the original video which depicts his historic kamikaze stunt is online.. to those who are curious, watch this movie.. turn the volume up to hear what they're saying k? Leeroys Video : http://www.wimp.com/leeroy/

i am a horrible person... its true.. in the line of humans, if arranged from good to bad... id be at the bottom half...not near hitler of course... but maybe ard them terrorists or something. yea tts how bad i am.

i dont know what happenned to mi until now. i remmeber vaguely i was an ok guy in pri sch... i was a wierdo then yea i have to admit... but i left my pri sch behind rite aft i left.. ironically the only pri sch guy i know now is Daniel [Toh] but tts coz we didnt talk in pri sch... so yea

sec sch... tt was worse...picked on in 1... nerdified in 2... 3 and 4 were my defiance stages, where i nv did work, i did my own thing, and got punished for it.. i remember i used to write codes in my books instead of doin math sums... it was fun.. i already could do the sums in the book and he was boring me. so i just read comics and stuff.. i think i got scolded alot in sec 4 coz i was told i was a loser and would nv amt to anything in life... so i told him [note: this him is my form teacher] that i know what the heck im doin and, quote, 'kindly stop bothering me'. i was blacklisted [hehe black] as a rogue student... i dont know the right word...defiant or watever..but rogue student sounds cool [i am a rogue yaar!].

But aside from Jon,Dan,Jerm,Jas and Russ.. ok i didnt know russ then..but i know now z.. i have once again erased most of my sec sch memories from my head.. i mean if u talk to mi, id prolly know whu u r if u just told mi ur name again... but the little things.. like what i did and stuff.. i forgot.. or wish to froget.. trust mi all those bio labs...chem labs... im tryin to friggin forget.. i hate all the memories i have of my life...

they say one's life is defined by the memories u keep, and the memories ppl have of u... my logic is that if i forget abt it, hopefully they wont associate mi with it, and they'd forget abt it.. which is why i intent to break away from everything poly-like as soon as i leave. i dont want the memories i have here either... the clinginess, the switching, the politics of some sort.. i dun mind the layers ppl put on themselves. i admit i do tt too. i dont want anyone to know abt my past... if word ever got out of my activities, id surely just suck and poly life would be secondary sch all over again. and i only wish that the past will nv repeat itself.. i probbaly disappear aft NS.. just wander ard... and die..by 30..or 25... i dont know how to attend cheryl's wedding.. i think i'll be in a little jar.. mmm jam..

if youre wondering why the heck im doin this, well i just had a long talk with Jo yesterday in the library. she was wonderin abt stuff between me and the other guys so i just told her what she needed to know. i think when u see us in our daily routine, the guys and me.. we r like chalk and cheese... they play sports, talk abt stuff. id rather read a nice book, and go on forums discussin event and social status.. im also a avid online comic reader, and those guys.. Dota. zz we're like 2 diff poles in a magnet.. gosh its lonely here.. ah well.

im just not like them thats all.. and i dun like being ard stuff i cant explain...makes mi feel inferior... coz everyone ard it knows wats going on and im all 'wha?' zzz. yea tts abt it..


and finally. bloggin is an art form.. every key stroke, a note being played, or a paint brush moving. whether it creates a masterpiece or chimps painting, its still considered art.. if u comments abt my art, the tagboard is there. post. and leave.. wait a few mins.. i'll get back to u ^^ dont fuckin hell make likke communities among urselves and plot abt mi.. it just adds more panic to my already paranoid self.

o and a piece of good news... I ask Jo to the DnD and she said yes... i think.. the convo was like... i asked her if she going, she said yea, so i asked her if she wanna go with mi, she said goin with her gal frens.. but i asked arent they goin with their bfs and all, so i tot if shed wanna go with mi, then she said 'ok ok can can can' i think thats a yes... im not sure... god i hope so.. as long as no one else asks her, which may make her forget abt mi... then im safe..=X. o well.. cheers ^^

KTHXBYE

i shall not swear for one weeek!

[Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide,
No escape from reality.
Open your eyes, Look up to the skies and see,
I'm just a poor boy,
I need no sympathy,
Because I'm easy come, easy go,
little high, little low,
Any way the wind blows
doesn't really matter to me,
to me. ]