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Aka: Sivam, Siv, Blitz, Player 3, Yellow Player, Mavis, Mavz
Class: Sin
Status: shell
Aspirations: nil.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
HI! [there will be guest posts done by various people in my blog so i hope u all enjoy various rants by ppl! XD]
woah its been a... month! omg i feel so bad for leaving this thing for dead. i guess i have many reasons for doin it. i felt bored, or maybe i made everything accumulate in hopes of describing everything in one go, which sadly to mi just being overwhelmed with information that i dont even want to write it down anymore. but i guess i'll do my best and if i happen to forget stuff, someone just notify mi so that i can write it down ok?
i'll just write down all my geek stuff first then go to the serious sch stuff so i guess u can skipthe first few paragraphs if ure not a fan of the 2d world ive created in my head [esp miss Tsai, whu constantly reminds mi that im an Idiot Gamer.. sigh. its true tho XD. my caramel cream puff doesnt care. dont think pei pei cares either.. yay for mi i think]
ok just go game by game i guess
Dead Games: WoW is dead to mi. coz not only is it expensive now, im goin to the army soon, so i dont have to care abt wasting my money on it..^^ Fly For Fun also is dead to mi, coz levlling was such a hassle, the skills were a bitch to level, and i thinks its unfair when the mobs are able to kill u so badly. i dont know how the Hardcore gamers do it lol. im not hardcore.. im just a C- gamer.
Turf Battles: started palying this a 2 weeks ago. quite a fun game, altho its like 80% based on pk-ing [Player Killing] and im a peaceful gamer. but the levelling system is nice. apparently u level way way WAY more faster when in a party.. i took two days to reach 20...and took an hour in max party to get to 33.. total hax. ah well im just playing to waste the time away ^^. hooray for time wasting skills of gaming!
DotA: i suddenly felt myself drawn to dota again. i guess its coz i found a character to train and love and care for. Razor the lightning revenant. i was actually gonna use the shadow fiend coz it was all cool and black and all. but i went to read all the character profiles and i saw a sentence i liked : 'Razor is Lightning Incarnate' <--- SO COOL!!! yea so im playing a lightning guy.. total Blitzness!
other games: i have this urge to get Dungeons and Dragons Online : Stormreach. but its not out yet in asia i think so i got to wait. this sux. hopefully i can wendy when she moves over to help mi get games frm us when they come out so i can play em here wheee XD.
ok no more game talk... serious stuf..
School is finally over. cant believe that the last 3 weeks of sch were one of the worst i have ever experienced. it was so screwed up. best was i dont remember doin anything during anything since i asked her to the DnD. but then for some reason, she abruptly says i did something.. things got complicated and now the DnD thing is off. ah well.. i didnt really want to go anyway. i just thought goin with her would be great, but no, she just had to do somethin so stupid to muck it all up.
u dont know what im talkin abt rite? nvm its cool. im just sick and tired of being blamed for stuff. i mean its ok to be blamed for stuff you done. it feels bad, but u know u did it, so u gotta take it in and laught abt it next time. but with her. she blames mi for stuff i dont think about, let alone even do. and that is what just pisses mi off. its hard to be close to someone when they're all 'oo lookit blitz o noes hes comin here /hide. hm he must have done something! if he didnt, lets just assume he did! /attack! yay we win ^5 ^5 for everybody.'. and its really screwing with my mind coz it just makes mi mad that someone i could like could think like that. but then , when u think abt it, thats how the human stupidity functions. with lots of paranoia.
so im kinda wondering if i should go for the DnD anyway. its bad enuff if im gonna see her there. coz it means it would be all awkward and stuff. i mean.. i was supposed to go with her. and then im not. what do i exactly do when i see her there? i cant exactly 'o.0 ZOMG U R HERE LOL', coz that would just make mi innards just bleed out of various sweat pores. it would just be too much to handle, totally ruining the mood of the DnD. altho if i dont go.. i waste 55dollars. and i want that money back. zz. but thats how i felt abt it that time. and i still feel like that now. but maybe alittle less mellow.
the exams were a killer. all 4 of the papers. AIA was confusing, as always. god dammit, always making us... think or something. watever happened to straightforward 'i giv eu question, you find answer, gimme answer and yay'. noo... now everything has to be a riddle wrapped inside a mystery coated in an enigma. im worried about that paper seriously but i think i should be ok.
cGMP was by far, the most manageable paper amoung the 4. completed it in time, not sure if i wrote enuff, or wrote the relevant stuff for that matter. hope i get a good grade for it haha. i hope i manage to pass it. the final report was ok but im worried that i didnt put in the right amount of information lol
CRE was ok. the last section of the paper was a screw up in the sense that i dindt know how the hell to do it lol. so im worried abt it. coz my labs were also not done very well so there is a high probability i may take the supp paper for that.. sigh.. hope i dont. i wanna play games!!! XD
MT was kinda mixed.. coz i found it ok. but eveyone found it hard. and i dont know.. im not the smart one.. so thats means i must have done something passively wrong... and i dint know abt it.. and this is the second paper i may possibly have to take a supp for.. which i hope i dont. MT is hard. very very hard... HARD!.
o yea , i didnt apply for any university because i know i cant get in yet. so why do i actually bother? i have absolutely no idea. lolx. kinda put off the document sending until i totally forgot about it. heh. i think im personally ruining my future. hope i dont really die like this. hope i die soon tho.. maybe ard 25 or 30. wouldnt it be cool? i dont think i wasnt meant to be in this world at this era.. the 70s maybe.. but not now.. never ever now.
the chalet was great. did lotsa stuff. but didnt manged to go golfing with audre. which is something i felt blue about... no golfin!!! fuck!.but the people were nice. esp shawn... played poker lots.. not with john coz john is violent lolx. celebrated ken's bday albeit early there coz some of the classmates goin ...somewhere i forgot. to help with somehting i forgot also.. zzz but all in all it was good!
have you ever felt that there is nothing in life to look forward to? i do. lots of times. i dont know why. its just that whenever i look around mi, everyone has figured out what they wanna do in their life, and here i am wondering, what i should really do. i have spent most of my life, preveiwing stuff and i know like random stuff. but i dont have the capacity or the passion to pursure something long -term anymore. i guess my faith in mi was depleted and i dont know waht i should really do in my life. maybe all i need a spark or something but i guess i have for that moment. until then, i guess i can wait for the sweet sweet embrace of death! DEATH!
i guess thats it for now. hope everything works out for mi soon. i got until im 20 to figure out my status. and ive got until 30 to die. hope i die earlier.
KTHXBYE!
[self description? i cry while the world laughs... laughing at me or not, does it really matter?]
woah its been a... month! omg i feel so bad for leaving this thing for dead. i guess i have many reasons for doin it. i felt bored, or maybe i made everything accumulate in hopes of describing everything in one go, which sadly to mi just being overwhelmed with information that i dont even want to write it down anymore. but i guess i'll do my best and if i happen to forget stuff, someone just notify mi so that i can write it down ok?
i'll just write down all my geek stuff first then go to the serious sch stuff so i guess u can skipthe first few paragraphs if ure not a fan of the 2d world ive created in my head [esp miss Tsai, whu constantly reminds mi that im an Idiot Gamer.. sigh. its true tho XD. my caramel cream puff doesnt care. dont think pei pei cares either.. yay for mi i think]
ok just go game by game i guess
Dead Games: WoW is dead to mi. coz not only is it expensive now, im goin to the army soon, so i dont have to care abt wasting my money on it..^^ Fly For Fun also is dead to mi, coz levlling was such a hassle, the skills were a bitch to level, and i thinks its unfair when the mobs are able to kill u so badly. i dont know how the Hardcore gamers do it lol. im not hardcore.. im just a C- gamer.
Turf Battles: started palying this a 2 weeks ago. quite a fun game, altho its like 80% based on pk-ing [Player Killing] and im a peaceful gamer. but the levelling system is nice. apparently u level way way WAY more faster when in a party.. i took two days to reach 20...and took an hour in max party to get to 33.. total hax. ah well im just playing to waste the time away ^^. hooray for time wasting skills of gaming!
DotA: i suddenly felt myself drawn to dota again. i guess its coz i found a character to train and love and care for. Razor the lightning revenant. i was actually gonna use the shadow fiend coz it was all cool and black and all. but i went to read all the character profiles and i saw a sentence i liked : 'Razor is Lightning Incarnate' <--- SO COOL!!! yea so im playing a lightning guy.. total Blitzness!
other games: i have this urge to get Dungeons and Dragons Online : Stormreach. but its not out yet in asia i think so i got to wait. this sux. hopefully i can wendy when she moves over to help mi get games frm us when they come out so i can play em here wheee XD.
ok no more game talk... serious stuf..
School is finally over. cant believe that the last 3 weeks of sch were one of the worst i have ever experienced. it was so screwed up. best was i dont remember doin anything during anything since i asked her to the DnD. but then for some reason, she abruptly says i did something.. things got complicated and now the DnD thing is off. ah well.. i didnt really want to go anyway. i just thought goin with her would be great, but no, she just had to do somethin so stupid to muck it all up.
u dont know what im talkin abt rite? nvm its cool. im just sick and tired of being blamed for stuff. i mean its ok to be blamed for stuff you done. it feels bad, but u know u did it, so u gotta take it in and laught abt it next time. but with her. she blames mi for stuff i dont think about, let alone even do. and that is what just pisses mi off. its hard to be close to someone when they're all 'oo lookit blitz o noes hes comin here /hide. hm he must have done something! if he didnt, lets just assume he did! /attack! yay we win ^5 ^5 for everybody.'. and its really screwing with my mind coz it just makes mi mad that someone i could like could think like that. but then , when u think abt it, thats how the human stupidity functions. with lots of paranoia.
so im kinda wondering if i should go for the DnD anyway. its bad enuff if im gonna see her there. coz it means it would be all awkward and stuff. i mean.. i was supposed to go with her. and then im not. what do i exactly do when i see her there? i cant exactly 'o.0 ZOMG U R HERE LOL', coz that would just make mi innards just bleed out of various sweat pores. it would just be too much to handle, totally ruining the mood of the DnD. altho if i dont go.. i waste 55dollars. and i want that money back. zz. but thats how i felt abt it that time. and i still feel like that now. but maybe alittle less mellow.
the exams were a killer. all 4 of the papers. AIA was confusing, as always. god dammit, always making us... think or something. watever happened to straightforward 'i giv eu question, you find answer, gimme answer and yay'. noo... now everything has to be a riddle wrapped inside a mystery coated in an enigma. im worried about that paper seriously but i think i should be ok.
cGMP was by far, the most manageable paper amoung the 4. completed it in time, not sure if i wrote enuff, or wrote the relevant stuff for that matter. hope i get a good grade for it haha. i hope i manage to pass it. the final report was ok but im worried that i didnt put in the right amount of information lol
CRE was ok. the last section of the paper was a screw up in the sense that i dindt know how the hell to do it lol. so im worried abt it. coz my labs were also not done very well so there is a high probability i may take the supp paper for that.. sigh.. hope i dont. i wanna play games!!! XD
MT was kinda mixed.. coz i found it ok. but eveyone found it hard. and i dont know.. im not the smart one.. so thats means i must have done something passively wrong... and i dint know abt it.. and this is the second paper i may possibly have to take a supp for.. which i hope i dont. MT is hard. very very hard... HARD!.
o yea , i didnt apply for any university because i know i cant get in yet. so why do i actually bother? i have absolutely no idea. lolx. kinda put off the document sending until i totally forgot about it. heh. i think im personally ruining my future. hope i dont really die like this. hope i die soon tho.. maybe ard 25 or 30. wouldnt it be cool? i dont think i wasnt meant to be in this world at this era.. the 70s maybe.. but not now.. never ever now.
the chalet was great. did lotsa stuff. but didnt manged to go golfing with audre. which is something i felt blue about... no golfin!!! fuck!.but the people were nice. esp shawn... played poker lots.. not with john coz john is violent lolx. celebrated ken's bday albeit early there coz some of the classmates goin ...somewhere i forgot. to help with somehting i forgot also.. zzz but all in all it was good!
have you ever felt that there is nothing in life to look forward to? i do. lots of times. i dont know why. its just that whenever i look around mi, everyone has figured out what they wanna do in their life, and here i am wondering, what i should really do. i have spent most of my life, preveiwing stuff and i know like random stuff. but i dont have the capacity or the passion to pursure something long -term anymore. i guess my faith in mi was depleted and i dont know waht i should really do in my life. maybe all i need a spark or something but i guess i have for that moment. until then, i guess i can wait for the sweet sweet embrace of death! DEATH!
i guess thats it for now. hope everything works out for mi soon. i got until im 20 to figure out my status. and ive got until 30 to die. hope i die earlier.
KTHXBYE!
[self description? i cry while the world laughs... laughing at me or not, does it really matter?]