wow.

time is a scrwed up thing. the past is gone, the present is now and the future is fucked. zzzz

The Past.

its been 3 months! to those that still visit.. [which should only be xiew, but i think he gave up coming in anyway...] sorry for the lack of updates

you see, there comes a time in every man's life [and i mean man, coz its mandatory..for women, they volunteer] that The Big Man [thats the government!] says 'hm, time to make him pay for all the stuff we've been giving himm for the past 16++ years, give or take'. then they send u a letter which basically says [not word for word, thisis a summary] 'YOUR SOUL IS OURS FOR 2 YEARS! ALL IS LOST. ALL YOUR SOUL IS BELONG TO US.' and they whisk you away, to different areas fo the country, exposing you to natinal propaganda and hoping you'd kiss the ground everytime u walk on it, so that youre Mr. Patriotic.

so yea i got enlisted and was sent to tekong for like 3 months to train up!

its qutie simple really.

Imagine The ENlistement to be a Online Game. When you were born, if you were male, you are automatically signed up and have registered an account, but the server [the government] has not given you your invite and activation code. so u cant log in yet. for girls, you can sign up anytime you want, and it has to be approved.
so when your reach a certain level [age] in life, the server sends u a letter with your code and stuff, thats when u areable to log into LIFE ONLINE: Serving the Nation!

now on the first day, its basically the tutorial, so they teach u basic stuff. for the next 13 weeks, your trained for a visitor [civilian] to a newbie [soldier]. basic commands and stuff

then you go through a series of trials and quests, to determine your class. thisis where the game sucks. normally you get to choose your own class regardless of wat you do, but this expansion, they choose it for you and force you upon it. which totally sucks coz i wanna go reccy but i think i cant. o well.

anyway the 13 weeks were... interesting. first things first. Basic Stats!!!

Name : Recruit Sivam Tharmarajah Murthy[Recruit BlitzSivam]

note: im a private now! [DING!!!!]]

Company : U [Ulysses, the great warriorzor! unique trait. he holds a shield on his right hand and a sword on his left! means his left handed! not many games offer that! huzzah!]

Platoon: 2 [sadly my platoon was full of chinese.. serious. only non chinese there was ... me. zzzz]

Section: 1 [uh..see above cept change platoon to section]

special notes: i fail my ippt!!! why? coz i suck at standing broad jump and i didnt improve on my chin up in time. [hm weeks 1 -11 do 0 chin up..week 12 do 4. aww too late.]
range was fun. i love shooting stuff.
field camp was cool. had lotsa fun in the nature themed area. too bad i couldnt get another knife. dual wielding rogue ftw.


but i graduated and yay. promotion! i wish i could be a reccy.

The Present

so anyway onward to the next section!! GAMING!

during the 13 weeks, WoW was out of the question. i mean COME ON. pay 50bucks to play for 16 days? fuck that. but when i updated last month i was greeted by so many modification

1st things first, the new talents are out! wat was shown in the burning crusade, has already came out. that means.. dual wield for shamans, muitilate for rogues and felguard for locks etc etc. so damn fucking cool.

im also playing JX2. for those of you who dont know, and its not many , its a malaysian game by game flier. quite cool actually http://jx2.gameflier.com.my . reminds mi of my elysium roots. currently playing a character from the Tang Clan. like throwing projectiles and settin traps haha.

but yea we'll see how everything goes, when The Burning Crusade comes out, i may return, but there are still so many things to try out. especially when the Nintendo Wii Comes out. Marvel Ultimate Alliance! and Legend of Zelda : Twilight Princess.. was atXtra's Place playing Justice League: Heroes last week. FUn game [ALl hail The Flash! Fastest Man Alive!]

but yea other than that gmaing is pretty boring. anyone can loan mi ff12? heh

The Future

as usual, for some reason i always seem to drift off and think abt stuff that scares the shit out of me. like for instance:

what if my dad were to die one of these days? ok so he's wat? 55? yea and the sole bread winner and if he's gone. woah there goes the income. mom has tobe a housewife coz of my bro [ if you dont know , you dont need to.] sis is only 8 and shed prolly get whacked with the shock the most. for me, 2 cases

1) i get hit so hard i break and turn insane

2) i get hit so hard i turn numb and heck care

of course, this would mean i quit gaming and get a job. and i know that in the future i have to take care of my brother, my mom and dad can do it forever, so at some point of time, he is goin to be my responsibility. and i dont think im gonna dump him anywhere. it just doesnt feel right. but of course you know me, say one thing, do another.

and studies! fuck i fucked up my poly years and i regret it now... *points to himself* you fucking pussy. but then wat, time is fucked up, things come and go, live and die, and for some reason, the thoughts of me going at 25 seem so very appealing, of course that would mean i leave my bor all alone with my parents who would be old.. and by the time im 25, my dad shoul be retired so that means income has to come from somewhere.. but where..not many options either me or the lottery. and we know the lottery sucks.

so yea. im just scared about the future. if im alive by the time im 40, im prolly gonnabe living with my bro and doin work, while he stays at home..

hm hed be bored.. but he cant get a job..maybe he can but would be good enough... i mean.. i dont know.. sigh..

z i blogged myself to a pitiful state. should end it b4 i die!

-fin-

KTHXBYE

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