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ok this will be mostly ramblings. i cnt be bothered to put in a timeline, or make it flow.. just assume every new paragraph is a new thought. dates will be displayed if remembered. but no promises. its from the top of my head

Hayden Panettiere did an FHM and Vanity Fair Shoot. HOT! especially in that black and white number. man to see her in real life for five minutes..ooh. [coz 1 minute is too short?] nice blonde and good looking. <3. the short hair in the vanity fair shoot did it for me lol

sigh now my parents say if i do chem eng inlocal uni , they can pay for the whole 2 years and it shud ok.. if not..the last year of uni gonna be a prob.. which is bad coz i dont wnna do chem eng.. but i also dun wanna go locall [cant go anyway...] and overseas...only can pay first year.. pwned... really in a dilemma here..might as well just apply and see how my luck goes.. sad...brace urself for this


i think its a bad choice to watch al pacino movies when you are full of rage.. i think that was a bad step for me.. esp when i learnt abt stuff that happened in chem eng during the last year..then i watched 'Scarface' and 'Godfather' . it just builds up... of course im emotionally unstable to begin with so what the hell lol.

they say the eyes are the windows to your soul.. i wonder what do you see in mine? i dont see anything in mine when i look in the mirror.. maybe coz im not a believer.. the essence of blitz is just no visible is it?. im not sure. someone tell me sometime =)

in order to succeed thru life, you must triumph through ordeals.. i wonder if i have had any real onces to go through before.. not sure myself.. maybe i havent, causing this attitude.. hard to shake off.. if only the flow of time wasnt so ... onesided... [two words: SAVE POINT].. course who wouldnt want.. i wonder.. physicists keep sayin there is no time at the Planck Scale but thats not thepoint lol

work was ok.. just tired.. my new buddy is a slacker from a slacker area. and he plays a PSP the fiend.. doesnt matter.. my DS owns. brain age and cooking mama for the win.. by the way, its funny to see people staring at you when u play cooking mama on the train.. i do it just for those faces lol.. course the rest of the time is lunar knights [its harder than i thought...].. waiting for ring of fates and zelda and ffxii - 2 of course ^^

i had that dream that involved the girl agn.. [just some random girl.. faceless.. but damn ice blonde hair.. shiny and smooth as silk.. how do i know if its silky.. coz its my dream damn it =)] as usual whenever im tourbled she comes... whats her problem...like the inside of me coming out to console me.. which makes you wonder why is my inner self a woman in the first place... so the conversation was abt my theme song.. the first time i did a survey, it said my theme song was ' back in black' by AC/DC. that spurned my interest in the band [Btw, thunderstruck is a classic, listen and be awed]. she laughed.. i asked why, she said 'heh black..funny isnt it?' and i smile and say 'yea... unique' . she then asks what did u want as a theme song for your whole life till now, and i tell her 'Desperado by The Eagles [if you dont know, youre useless.] and she says it makes sense.. i ask her 'what did u have in mind' and she says this..

nothing really.. but from me to you, i just wanna give u 'all you wanted- michelle branch'

and then i wake up an realize its 3 in the bloody morning, and im waiting for my next shift.. so naturally i just stayed awake thinking abt this while reading my discover mag [worlds largest Hadron Cylinder! i wanna go see it..]

uh nothing else to say i guess.. i wonder when all the people who went overseas are comin back..nad in so, i wonder if i have time to meet em.. the previous meels visit i couldnt do anything.. so i guess wait another year.. wendy has been gone since last year zz.. i used to talk to sara lots..but we drifted... like that anime said it will

and with that..my brain is at rest...but for how long? sa. no idea..until next time

kthxbye

wonderful night.