hm.

have u ever been so sure of something but then have it blow in your face? that sucks right? this is why taking risks is bad. the disappointment recieved willjust send you into despair.

personally i was 100% sure that it would work. but then in the end, it actually didnt. zzz. i guess i never took into account her emotions and thoughts.

i wonder what happened to me after a certain point in life, that turned me this way. i also wonder, that if i went back to that point, would i be able to change everything? meh. who knows.

[i cant survive the future. death only awaits. too many ppl depend on me, and i cant even help myself. if i want to do wat i wanted to do, id prolly just disappoint them further, and fail at it anyway. causing my pain.]

well, sorry. but in my defence i didnt ask for this. wtf i wanted a life alone, but no.., apparently when in the future, im still gonna have to support all this. screw it.

[its hard to typed misty-eyed]