yo

so ive changed my blog title.. when i first made the blog, it was the zone where normal things dont very often. it reflected the life i had in poly, all the fun times, the bad times, and all the odd times.

but nows, its been 3 years, and all that i have is... Despair.

so. welcome to the Zone of the Despair! [The Whole world is going to hell! And ive got the keys to the van]

anyway im going to camp tonite. strangely i dont feel that bad abt it. at least in camp i know, im safe from everything else. i mean, they cant really kill u in camp [they could if they tried but hey, i keep my hopes up]


sigh i completed a few anime series this week. most notable is Binbo Shimai Monogatari. set in japan, it tells the story of two sisters who lost their mother when they were young. father left them in debt, so they live alone together and try to make ends meet. categorized as drama with comedy in it. some ppl consider it yuri, but i think otherwise. its perfect sibling love. its cute la.. but then some parts are quite touching i guess. dunnoe whethere to laugh or cry.

another series i did over the week was Canvas 2: Rainbow Colour Sketch. Funny. not really as sad as suzuka but it was romantic. the ending was a disappointment though. he chose the cousin!
sigh whats up with that. true, it wasnt like da capo [I hate Nemu] , but still it was pretty creepy.

this week, if anyone cares, go and watch Moyashimon. Perfect Slice of Life Anime. its pretty slow, but its quite funny at some points. Sketchbook~ Full Colors as well. im kinda into slice of life stuff now and its very interesting. theres not really much romance, but its more on how the characters interact and develop over time..

by the way, alot of animes have been goin into comedy recently. examples such as Clannad [Please PLEASE watch this.] and Myself;Yourself. but set in high school and stuff, im kinda waiting for it to turn into another School Days Clone. School days was disturbing, considering the last epi was totally horrifying [im not spoiling. go see if u want to]. i wonder if the rest of the them are goin to end up like that. laugh now i guess, the sorrow will set in soon enough.

like life, when u think abt it. u enjoy the good times, laughing, loving, having fun. then , before u know it, despair and sorrow will fill the land, and u realize that all that u do, is futile.


what drives you guys to do what you do? people? yourself? other stuff i have no idea about? i feel like i am missing something in this grand scheme of things that i cant seem to find ever. will i end up like tomoyo? heh [DElinquent] or something far more sinister. the darkness around me is indeed vast, but i cant seem to be bothered about it anymore. the sweet embrace of death is all that awaits me.

as people age, new problems arise. there will come a time when i have to take over everything. why? coz i have no choice? why me? coz there is no other person. if i could, i would refuse it straight away. but no. i cant, coz im not that soulless. and i can never bring anyone to my burden because that would make me a horrible person.. well, in my opinion anyway.

which is really a blessing that we r just friends. and not just her. im lucky im just friends with anyone. the best piece of advice i can give to people from now on, is to not get too close to me. damaged goods o no... lol


nothing much i can think of right now so whatever

Current Song: Clannad OP and ED [Dango Daikazoku]

[ how selfish of me to not want to get emotionally involved, yet not let her go. but then again, its not like she likes me anyway. it should work out]