do parents really think about the future of everyhting b4 the sleep at night.

seems stressful imo.

i wonder what my parents think about.?

worry about what the future has in store for my bro. he cant survive on his own.. so its not his fault. its not their fault either so it cant be helped.

worry about how my sis is gonna improve her grades. no way a pri schooler should be doin that bad. would they blame themselves for it? i wont blame em? but still.. its a parent's responsibilty.

worry about how their eldest son is actually ruinin his life doin othing productive, and instead of improving his life for the benefit of everyone, is instead slowly destroying everything he holds dear, taking along everyone with them

10years down the road, when everything could be in chaos, would they still blame themsevles ask question each other 'how did we raise them wrongly?'

pfft. mom, dad its not ur freaking fault la. its mine definitely, but i dont have thepower to change it.

so if, and i say IF, you have the urge to blame urselves of the state of your offspring in the future, please dont.

coz i really, i dont see anyone at fault but myself.

the only advice i can give ppl who know me, is that to tell ppl they love, that when they grow up, or go out, stay away, from people like mi


[truly worthless. want to change, but i cant. because im an idiot who cant handle the world well.]