the following post may not make sense
in fact, the part may not seemt o flow together, so the best solution is to take a paragraph at time, assumin one paragraph is a new story every time. there is no timeline so just keep reading and pretend is something new and refreshing.

yo

yea i haven blogged since aft new years whoops, guess im lazy as hell..

lots to talk about i guess... if i remember, i'll just type whatever enters my brain..

im supposed to do uni application stuff and whatnot this year..in feb or jan or march..well asap i guess.. since the timeblock is now.. my parents said something abt goin overseas but i dont think id do that.. mainly coz if i went overseas alone, id prolly go out of control

no no shooting out of control, more like winter-een-mas out of control

fortunately id avoid women, so no unplanned pregnancies. but i guess id go all hikikomori and just watch anime till my eyes and ears bleed. or somehting like that. the problem is i tend to lose control sometimes.. dont know why.. the army is supposed to make mi disciplined , but all its done so far is prove to mi my weight fluctuates.

not that im blaming the army. o yea, they say u get stupid in the army, like slowly, ur brain matter just shrivels up and dies. ive experienced it, but i dont know if its the army's fault or my own personal undoing. ah i guess i'll figure it out once i ord

i should really start applying for uni and stuff right? shud have done it twice b4, but i guess i was lazy and really didnt do it coz i didnt feel like it.

bt then again.. what do i really feel like doin? is there a future i can see for myself? i dont really see myself working or studying or doin anything really.. i just see myself just.. lazing around, being an otaku or something. coz i cant do that thanks to the family's demands [WOO FAMILY -.- _|_]. i kinda figured out by the time i was 12, after psle that 20 years from now, id have to suppport more than myself, even without gettin married [which im not mind u lol]. that was pretty hard. but then again at 12 u had dreams! to be an astronaut [imposible] or rich guy [ hard, but not really impossible..techinically.]

but when i graduated from poly with my pathetic score [yea i did sucky coz i was stupid.] i realize that ppl look at u differently

my army mates thought i dropped out of poly. am i really that stupid.. or stupid looking -.-. sigh cant be helped i guess. coz with my gpa i might as well dropped out. tho i think my dad would kill me. meh.

haven played gh3 ni awhile.. played LOTRO for a bit, decided to p2p, but then p[laye 1 said it as boring.. so now we have no game.. guess its back to no gaming again ^^.

but i did try my first visual novel... my thoughts? fun. the writing was nice. it was quite funny at points such as the part when one of the girls scolded mi for insulting her in my inner monologue. how the heck she read my mind, i dont know.. managed to unlock all the endings for the 5 girls.
my favourite ending is still the reunion one. after 5 years, the girl he loved came back. and all he said was 'okaeri' [welcome back] and she said 'tadaima' [im back]. i just 'awwww' then. sadly that girl was the best friend of the girl who loved mi, so it was sad at some parts. like when they started fighting. not really 'aww' but ' hm' the ending was still 'aww'. the other 4 girls were ok. good writing, not so good picture.. something abt the faces.. like the old version of drawing.. like from kanon [ not 2006 kanon]. but still a nice storyline... if i can fix my com up, id play clannad. ppl say its quite good but then again, i get my information from 4chan

i learnt in4chan that im a weaboo otaku with a powerlevel of less than 1000... =( but still i go there sigh.

all i can think off.. need to get ready for camp soon. will write more stuff, more often. yea.

cheers to the next few days. nobody die.

I am the bone of my sword
Steel is my body, and fire is my blood
I have created over a thousand blades
Unknown to Death
Nor Known to Life
Have withstood pain to create many weapons
Yet, those hands will never hold anything
So as i pray, unlimited blade works

-Emiya Shirou