yo

its the 2nd of march. which bring forth the question: WHERE THE FUCK DID FEBRUARY GO? first January left me without a trace , and suddenly, feb just disappeared. it isnt so bad, the romance month of year is gone. every cloud amirite?


these few days have been the same old.. i managed to finsh rune factory on my ds. now just trying to complete some side quests,see if i can marry tori with all the girls still 10. and i just unlocked lynette too, sigh... oh well i got enuff time i think.. and no new games are coming out until next week [Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles Ring of Fates! or FFCCRoF for short.]

6th of march

booked out on wednesday... apparently players 1 an 2 were free so we unofficially decided to go out.

spent the day reading volume 1 of suzumiya haruhi [ melancholy. aka half the anime series.]
not too bad. pretty uneventful otherwise.

ard 6, got the call. 6.30 at tamp. told him impossible. but i'll try my best. had a shower, ironed clothes, shaved. blablabla.. 6.35. needless to say had to do other stuff so i said im leaving my house at 7

took the 7 bus and met player 1 at pasir ris [aaprently aft 7 , the bus doesnt go to tamp, so dan had to wait moar. LOL]

we decided to go watcha movie. i suggested L and they said ok. but sadly.. they were not showing it at cs so.. we checked the other options.

Meet the Spartans: Junk
some other crap i cant seem to remember: more junk
10K BC: hm.. less junky sounding

so we chose that.

had dinner at kfc. talked abt random stuff. we were almost late for the movie. but thats coz we took time to buy popcorn

ok now for the movie review

10,000 BC. or.. 10K BC. or... 0.01M BC.

out of 5: 3 maybe [ my opinion, dont troll me]

quick recap.

10k BC sucked. dont watch it unless u really have no other movie to watch. which was why we did. [ no L: Change the World? sigh.]

aper thin plot, although the girl was hot. action was GAR. but nothing compared to 300. [ that was truly, a man's movie]. the action sequences were ok. alot of gaming references were in my head a some points. but hey..sabertooth tiger! rocking.

10th of march

still working but non a nice 2day/2off shift woo

MSK is still on the loose. surprising how he can still evade capture. must have some points in survival.

wat exactly does it mean to be kind? is it to do something without expecting anything inr eturn? wont that just cause people to take advantage of you? and woldnt that be screwing yourself over?

wat is.. love?
Baby dont hurt me, Dont hurt me, No more.





14th march
y0 [usual rules. a new para, a new thought]

considering have not blogged in over three weeks, i apologize. shit happens whether i like it or not, and as much as i want to write about it. i always think abt it during work, have the uge to write it then, then scan the crap when i come home. but i dont have a scanner, neither do i write it when im at camp [lazy]. maybe with the new rule change i should be able too.. who knows. as long as i got someone to tell me how to scan and post that would be fine. and who knows? maybe it will improve my god forsaken handwriting. although, it would prolly just prove how much my handwriting sucks. how i have fallen. oh how i have fallen. and yet... i cant seem to pick myself up.

work - wise..all is good. stepping down next month. then i get 2 weeks break.. then after that is solid training. im lookin forward to the trianing although i know im gonna collpase. i gained alot of weight. i broke trough the barrier i set the last time.. which is disturbing... gotta lose it soon. gonna diet first. maybe do a self detox. [apple juice for three days. owned.] then the healing shall begin. i wonder whats gonna happen. bad stuff.

my logic is warped. the train of thought ... is warped as well. i also realizze when i do sudoku, that i have low logic. and i go 0 common sense.. sigh.


heres a scenario. [scenario may be fictitious]

lets say u meet a girl.. and u guys have the time of your life. as friends [its possible , its true.]. u guys lose contact after awhile [shift happens] and u suddenly find urself talkin to her again for no reason. now during one of ur conversations she tells u, that she had a crush on u years ago. but she doesnt now, oh no. its cause the time aparts has extinguished that flame.

now, what are the allowed reactions? happiness coz u know that u went through life being loved, because i dont get that. all i think of is... confusion, sorrow, then nothingness

just exactly what is the point in tellin someone this now?

ts better to love and lost, than never to be loved at all. is that it? is this what you are trying to tell me? coz im only gettin that. and all i get so far.. is rage.

i dont get it why its the guys job to do it on time. if u chicks always fight for womens equalty, u take some of the initiative yourself goddamit

of course, im accepting my lady friends explanation of a possible mindfuck. it is possible if it done to u, she is just stringing you along so that you could go all crazy an run to her. which is what you should not do! the race of succubi are vile and troublesome and if given half the chance, would slit your throat.

just for your info.

nothing much else.. prolly start. actual writing and posting..soon.

[ me and winston at T1

me:eh , china ready for 2008 olympics anot? hows the cost of stuff
winston: u ask me for fuck? i from china meh
me: i dont know. u keep asking mi if i know the workers. i from india meh?
winston: .... ok

small victory. but futile.]